Cloth Diapering and Outlets

I wonder how many mothers out there breathe in a collective sigh when their children successfully go down for a nap; I know that I am one of those mothers - most days at least. Especially this morning after Collin's diaper leaked all over himself, his clothes, my clothes, and my bed...at 4:30 in the morning.

I have been doing a lot of research lately on cloth diapers. I own a few BumGenius 3.0 All-in-Ones and many Mother-Ease fitted cloth diapers. However, my husband and I really enjoy camping, hiking, fishing...lots of outdoor activities that require a diaper that dries quickly, but is also effective.

Here are my issues with BumGenius diapers:

• they leak - nothing makes this mama more frustrated than having to not only change Collin's diaper, but also his clothes because they are soaked, and if he was sleeping/napping when this happened, I have sheets and bedding to wash.
• their inserts are too bulky when your child is still itty bitty - it causes the diapers to flare out in the front, which helps cause leakage
• they aren't quite as absorbent as I would like them to be
• the velcro will eventually wear out and I will have to fix it

Positives to BumGenius diapers:

• they're not as bulky as my Mother-Ease
• if I'm feeling lazy, just velcroing a diaper is much easier than doing up to the 8 snaps I do with my M-E diapers

My qualms with Mother-Ease:

• they take a long time to dry after washing
• they are very bulky

Positives to Mother-Ease diapers:

• they hold lots and lots of pee!!
• I have never had one leak on me, EVER
• never had any diaper explosions...yet??

Nicki, the owner of Nickisdiapers.com, designed her own diapers called BestBottoms...and I'm thinking of ordering some because they sound really neat, and in my opinion think she's quite the expert on cloth diapers. She tried to integrate all the positive aspects of all the different kinds of cloth diapers out there (prefolds, fitted, all-in-ones, pocket). It also sounds like they would be a great match for outdoor activity lovers! Any thoughts?

In other news, my husband loves video games. He was playing StarCraft 2 when it was out in beta form, and just bought it on Tuesday when it came out on the market. He even woke up early this morning so he could play a game before work - because I asked him to go to sleep at the same time as me for the first time in a week. Does anyone else have these issues?! While SC2 was between beta and coming out on the market, he had to play Dragon Age: Origins, Company of Heroes, or goodness only knows the other games he played... Don't get me wrong, I think an outlet is great! I have mine (cooking, cleaning, reading, long bubbly baths) as well. I just think when they cut into already-precious sleep that something is wrong here. I also enjoy video games as well; yes, I will admit that before Collin was born, and once he gets on to a better sleeping pattern, my husband and I will play World of Warcraft again. It is fun - in measured doses. Maybe it's a male thing - they start doing something and get so single-minded on what they're doing that they can do it for hours and hours and hours.

Me? I multi-task like crazy. That's why I love slings and wraps :)

In other news, I have been informed that when my brother-in-law buys a boat this fall, it's getting stored in my garage. And my husband wants us to go halves on it with him...

Yep. News to me

Early A.M. Musings

I wonder how many synonyms there are for exhausted.

I never thought I would miss German so much, but I do. I always wonder at the different crossroads God places before us, and how it is that we chose the path we have. Ich traume so oft nach Deutschland.

A glimpse at one of my favorite poems of all time:

Es war, als hätt der Himmel Die Erde still geküßt, Daß sie im Blütenschimmer Von ihm nun träumen müßt.

Die Luft ging durch die Felder, Die Ähren wogten sacht, Es rauschten leis die Wälder, So sternklar war die Nacht.

Und meine Seele spannte Weit ihre Flügel aus, Flog durch die stillen Lande, Als flöge sie nach Haus.

- Mondnacht, Joseph Freiherr von Eichendorff

A New, but Slightly Reused, Birth

...so this is not referencing to the birth of my son, Collin, since that happened - almost - three months ago (really??) but after my friend Courtney told me she started a blog, I remembered all the blogs I used to write years ago, and how I loved writing and having an outlet for all my thoughts coursing through me each and every day. Plus, hello?? New mom here, and still acquainting myself to a new town - which means not only am I traversing the "new mommy" highway, but am also struggling my way through finding friends in this small town. So, blogging, I'm back on my soapbox, and I'm sure it will be a wild ride once more.

And since the title of my blog may seem really weird...what it means is: A complex version of the truth (or truths).

...Which I'm finding motherhood to be each and every day...because at the end of the day, is there really only one right way, or one truth, about motherhood? In eighteen years, will my son be hugging me filled with love and respect for his mother, or will he feel overwrought and exasperated...or somewhere in between?

Speaking of my son, I hear him occasionally crying out in his sleep, which is his first signal that he'll be waking up soon, wanting milk and thus getting into mommy and daddy's bed (yes, he does sleep in our bed after his initial wake-up), guess that means sleepy time for this mama.